I gAsp!

I gasp! In my existence of that which includes yours in a film of blurry imagery and fuzzy concepts, I choose to run my fingers through the velvet skin of your strong cheekbones. I feel a twitch of your jaw, a dimple emerging from a cheeky smile of a bitten lip. Your eyes, a blue…

Homosexuality – A Gender Issue

At an early age, growing up in Tanzania, I knew that there was something intrinsically different about me, at my core; the first anxiety that came in a wave was a gendered one. Somehow this identity that was in me, this thing that I was harboring, alone, this thing that differentiated me from the boys, seemed…

Straight Label Rejected

The case for the renegotiation of straightness with the hope of chipping away the oppressive language towards homosexuals For years, my conversation has largely borrowed the word ‘straight’ to refer to heterosexuals, males to be specific, as it has been more pertinent; its relevance stemming from the need to find my place, to define myself,…

Death of gay-straight male friendship

In 2010, I was supposed to go to Chile to manage a program in a University. Part of the process was the starting of the conversation with students in the program. One of them was Nicolas. Sadly, the program was scrapped off and I didn’t go to Chile. However, my friendship with Nicolas started. I didn’t…

Sexualized Conversationalist

I have been making a lot of jokes; I am a highly sexual person from the topics I indulge myself in. I utter some of the most provocative messages and well everyone knows that I can turn a very modest & innocent conversation into something highly sexual, something adult, something PG 18. I don’t even…

Embracing a Gay Identity

This work presents a psychological analysis of the process of “coming out” for gay men in America since 1950. Wilfrid Koponen looks at the process as a series of steps in a hero’s journey progressing from initial denial and anger to guilt, bargaining, and depression. The stages of acceptance and integration of a gay identity…

Hometowns: Gay Men Write About Where They Belong

Frankly gay in its identity but universal in its themes of belonging, alienation, and community, Hometowns is a powerfully emotional, heartwarming exploration of how gay men fit into our society in every culture and every part of the country (U.S.) Written by John Preston, published in 1992.

Skinned Alive: Stories

The eight stories in this erotic and heartbreaking collection of Edmund White, published in 1995, are barometers of difference. They measure the distance between an American expatriate and the Frenchman who tutors him in table manners and rough sex; the gulf between a man dying of AIDS and his uncomprehending relatives.

Gay tête-à-tête in Zanzibar

Name: Richard Ammon Suraka was a 23 year-old Tanzanian receptionist at the one of the most stylish bungalows in a beach resort in Kendwa village on the west coast of Zanzibar; a place where Freddie Mercury was born. With a ready smile and a soft masculine bearing he received us. Like many other employees he…

Courage in Difficult Times

By Richard Ammon  Published in 2011 and reviewed in 2016 As we speak in the quiet of my hotel restaurant in Tanzania, it is clear that both Allan and Jon (not their real names) are apprehensive about being overheard. “The person to your left is staring at us and I don’t feel safe,” writes Jon on…